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Making Health a Priority

My therapist, my GP, and my nutritionist all agree that I should make my health my highest priority. That doesn't mean go on a diet. But it probably means getting more exercise. If I'm going to make exercise a higher priority that will mean dropping other things. I have a tendency, when I'm setting off on a course of self improvement, to try to change too many things at once. I need to stick to just health issues.

That means I might not be hanging out on the internet as much as I have on the past.

I had a good meeting with my therapist today. At one point I get so upset I had trouble breathing and she gave me a paper bag to breathe into. I have never had to use a paper bag to breathe before.

We talked a bit about my laughter. I know that I sometimes laugh at the weirdness of my own thoughts, but my therapist has pointed out that I sometimes laugh when I talk about things that are not funny. I didn't realize that I have a nervous laugh. Thinking back on it, my dad tends to laugh when he says something critical. I do that too. If I'm worried that people might take offense I laugh to try to defuse any offense. But I also laugh when I say things that are personally reveling. That laugh is fear of being hurt. All of those are unconscious, not things I am choosing consciously to laugh at.

I wonder what other people think of my laughter?

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Thinking back on it, my dad tends to laugh when he says something critical. I do that too. If I'm worried that people might take offense I laugh to try to defuse any offense.

I've never noticed, really. But then again how often do we hang out? And I laugh at inappropriate times too... b/c I'm a weirdo. But laughing through a critical statement is something I tend to try to avoid (not always successfully, but hey) because of the opposite. I'd think that "This isn't right, you're wrong LOLOLOLOL!" could come off as condescending and more offensive - which is the exact opposite of what you were intending.

Like I said, I haven't noticed a problem myself, but it's always something I try to be careful about.
You are probably right about that. A couple of people have accused me of taking pleasure in making other people feel stupid. I know I don't do that. But it could be my nervous laughter that is giving them that impression.

I'm not sure I can do anything about it. It is a kind of nervous tic, not a conscious choice. And I only realized I do it yesterday. When I was talking to my therapist I was able to recognize when I was doing it, but I wasn't able to stop it. And I had trouble breathing. There may be a limit to the number of coping techniques I can give up and still be able to cope.
Honestly, if you can only give up so many coping mechanisms at once, then only give up so many. If somebody makes a comment about it, explain the situation. Either they'll understand or they're a dick. =D

Meanwhile, I looked up one of my 'nervous habits' online a few weeks ago and the internet told me that it might be a tic / sign of a tourettes? Thanks internet!!! =D
I enjoy it, myself.